Dirty little secret

i think the title says enough, you hopefully get the picture. gorgeous house, but no this isn't the one we are moving to. and yes, that's what i said, we're moving. after 11 years of being in Utah we are heading to South Carolina, Charleston area. i doubt we can afford a house like this, but one can hope right? I feel like I've had a secret for too long, (we've know about 2 weeks moving was an option, and decided yesterday its a done deal) and now its time to admit it, we're moving. I'm scared, i am having a baby in 2 weeks, and we are supposedly moving Aug 1st. That gives me 10 weeks to have a baby and pack my house. I planted my garden and wont get to reap my rewards. I'm sad. i used to think i didn't mind change "it was fun and new and exciting" but now that we are going to be like 6 days away from the nearest family member (sorry Jessie you don't count, you are moving in like a yr) I was all for change if that meant moving to California. but no, the opposite ocean, the one with warm water and no waves to play in, there are tons of trees to block the skies, but a lot of history to learn about. I'm trying to think all positive thoughts. It's hard. I'm hoping its just fear of the unknown, including pregnancy hormones making me scared. anyway, that's my dirty little secret.

Oh and the worst part is we have to give Anna away. does anyone want a 7 yr old black lab? she's a really good dog, i'll even take her back in a few years! so sad, thinking about it just makes me sad.